okay, so.

okay. so i made this blog because all the cool kids i know have one, yet, obviously ive never used it. and im not too sure if anybody will read this, but i know little miss sarah will! yayyyy

so, after much time of contemplating it, ive finally decided to blog. im a sucker for fitting in. and its the hpc way!

yeah so the missions conference was today and definitely made me more confused about life and where to go. i just feel so overwhelmed right now and at the same time sort of spiritually drained from allll the crazy stuff with my family, its like everything is pulling on me and i havent been deliberate enough about turning to God and getting Him to fill me back up and looking to Him as my source of strength. and the sad thing is i know it and i reconize it, and yet i still have trouble doing it. bleh.

but, im pretty much thinking LA Dream Center will be an amazing oppurtunity, a learning oppurtunity and a time to really go and support and learn from the amazing servants over there and some harcore Jesus-style ministry. cause thats what they are about. and we definitely need more of that in Refuge. Im really loving this amazing heart change Refuge is going into. i think its so important for High School students to have a heart to reach out in this community, thats the only way that anything of the INJUSTICE we see in this world around us will ever change.

injustice? JUSTICE?! TORI OHLERKING?!?! ahhh love her, and shes gonna be starting a justice projects life group which is sure to be slamming and im so 100% for. she will seriously do amazing things with that, she has the heart.

another + about LA is that so many people in the church, esp. nowadays, and esp the youth think so glamourously of missions and foreign missions and its just kinda the thing to do. you are a hardcore real christian if you go evangelize africa and india, but its sooo not that way. which sounds hypocritical of me because, well, i want to live all over the world doing foreign missions. BUT, God has been having to show me that it starts here, just like sarah said too. Serving here in our own country is just as, if not more important than serving around the world. i dont know, i think its a really really good thing we are going.

this has been a very long post about one thought, but oh well.

kwaheri rafiki!